Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Adult times

So my Grandma and Grandpa passed away in one week this summer. Felt like being hit by a large truck two times. I learned what it felt like to cry so hard you are sort of screaming and you can't actually feel your legs under you so you fall to your knees. Have you had that happen. It actually feels good to get it out.
I am trying to figure out if that is what is making me feel so adult?

Could it be money?always causing trouble.

Could it be moving into a big house with a fenced back yard and 2 fireplace and my own craft room? Anybody have any white picket fencing for the front.

My kid is getting baptised in a few weeks. Isn't he still 3.

My husband is so handsome to me I can barely stand it. Do I take time to smell the roses?

I have two kids and they are both going to be in school all day this year. Maybe I will have time to get on my bike and ride like the wind. I use to do that.

My sweet little nephew has cancer. Are you kidding me?

I want to go to Hawaii.

My brothers family is threatened and I cannot make his choices for him. I can pray and I have.

Our neighbors smoke. My son asks if they know it gives you cancer and it is addictive why did they start. Because we can make our choices.

People are sometimes so mean and it hurts.

People put a lot of faith in me to decorate and I do a good job. I have a gift. Thanks for that.

Is that what it is to be an adult?

5 comments:

So Many M's said...

You are amazing!!! I'm sooo sorry for your loss(es). It's been a hard summer hasn't it? I have felt that way. My fav. grandma passed away also this summer and it has been the hardest. I cried for a week straight and when I thought I was done, I cried some more and not the tearing crying but the full on sobbing, body convulsing kind. We are praying for Hunter and hope all works out for him the fam. What a trial to go through. Cami and Aaron are amazing. Just keep the faith and continue praying. Miss ya

Mama Nirvana said...

Lydia, I'm so sorry for the loss of your grandparents. You are an amazing woman with so many talents! Your house sounds amazing!

Amy

Jessica said...

Yes, you are an adult and I want to be like you when I grow up, so please don't change, ever.

Thank you for being in my life and in my heart, I am SO lucky! Love & Hugs, Jessica

Alli said...

Wow - thoughtful post. I miss you :(

The Shepro's said...

Be ready to have a friend come home. I fly in today! PS...wanna go to Hawaii...no joke! I can get us passes which might make it a little cheaper. hmmm?????